Trudging the Road of Happy Destiny

Siphon

The gifts of recovery can get in the way of recovery and when this happens I find myself in old and familiar territory. The simple abstinence from chemicals is not enough for me to experience the happiness and joy available in the moments. I realize that I have been one of the people that used recovery to my own benefit and then checked out. Yes life is amazing and exponentially better than it was; however, I am experiencing a spiritual plateau. I also ponder this idea of plateau because if I am not growing I am backsliding. The peace and ease of my chemicals is not an option today and without active replacement many old and familiar behaviors reemerge in a spiritual quest for relief. These means of coping can bring discomfort to all and I have a responsibility to shift my posture from that of someone who siphons off the solution to that of someone striving to be of maximum service. It is easy to fall into the flow of life and turn away from the actions that made it all possible. It is essential to reconnect and stay connected to the solution that delivered me from a hopeless state of mind and body.

Today I will take 1 action to reconnect to recovery. Today I will be grateful and remember to breathe.